IF ONLY....

Been extremely sad since last week.
Effin emo.
All the bad things happened at the same time.
Grandpa admitted hospital coz he had a stomach ache.
Diagnosed, nothing wrong.
He is so weak now. Even fell down yesterday. =(

Another thing, happened last week.
Actually wanted to burst it out here.
But on second thought, I did not.
I don't need the whole world to know what emo shits I'm going through.
Nobody understands anyway.
People would just think it's "Another bullshit".
Yea, whatever.

So, after having all my wild thoughts run through my head, I thought,
"Hmmmm. Why do I have to suffer like this? I don't have to perceive it in such negative way. About this. About everything. Why not just let it go? Just let nature take its course. Just go with the flow and accept all flaws. Wouldn't I be happier this way? Think positive."

I still hope it's not going to happen.
Please? Hmmmmm.

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Anyway, war weeks are over.
Stressed like one shit.
Besides screwing my English [what a shame], I screwed Counseling as well.
I didn't know what I was writing. Pages of crap.
I just hope I can pass and maintain my cgpa.
*SIGH*

O!
I moved out from the filthy, horrible, man-eating hostel!
RELIEF 9999999999999999999!
Holy. Never thought I had that much stuff.
Roommie moved out as well.

Don't know if I can drive to college the next semester.
[My driving SUCKS. High possibility to murder everyone on the road]
Plus, no car sticker!
Blah........

I should be happy.
It's all over now!
I get to enjoy my 3 weeks semester break!
CNY. Going to Bukit Gambang. The waterworld something something.
Going to take my time to chillax as much as possible.
Planned to finish GG but SIIIIII JOJO didn't copy it for me. -,-
Why must CNY fall on V day?!
...

Cleaned my room yesterday. It became a dump site.
Piles of books and papers and trash.
My bed, table and chair are all occupied.

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..:: Today ::..


Went out with the pig today.
Watched Toothfairy!
Dwayne Johnson looks sexy in the tutu!
Funny part : The old fairy man explaining to him about the amnesia dust
* Explain. Sprinkle. ?. Explain. Sprinkle. ?. Explain. Sprinkle. ? *
Lol

After the movie, pig sent me to BTR LRT.
First time. =D
Kinda takut at first, tapi people pro dah. =D

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Okay.
Done crapping.
Wakey early tomorrow.
KLCC with mom tomorrow.
No, not shopping.
No shopping!
I don't like shopping!
NO!
Not about $$.
Just don't like it.
HMPH.

THE END

BIG SIGH.
Pathetic shit.
I totally screwed my English paper.
Serious screwed up piece of crap!
It's frustrating when I tell people that I screwed my English.
No one believed me.
I AM EFFIN SERIOUS THIS TIME, OKAY!
I know it.
It's okay, when the results are out, they'll know.

O! It's Lam Sze Sze's birthday today! =D
Muacks Muacks!
Been a long time I didn't hang out with the freaks.
Hang out after war! ♥

Tamadun paper today.
Kind of O-kay I would say.
Really hope I can get an A for this.
I can't depend on English this time. -,- *pissing off*

Next,
battle against Psych, Socio & Counseling.
I haven't really read a single bloody thing.
Especially Sociology.
I have no idea what the fuck it is crapping about.
Society, stratification, status, Max Weber, Karl Marx, bla bla bla.............

I DO NOT FANCY SOCIOLOGY AT ALL!
I HAVE TO LOVE SOCIOLOGY FOR THE SAKE OF EXAM!
I JUST WANT TO PASS!
But I can't just get a stupid 'pass'!
My CGPA!!!!!!!!!
URGH!!!!! Stress shit!

Okay. I have released my frustration & anger & tension.
Study study study.
I'm going nuts.
I want to try something.
I'm not going to turn on my lappie for 11 days.
Seriously.
It's a total distraction!
NO!

Radiations from the screen & exams are driving me up the wall.
Bulging eyes & corpse's skin again.
I can live in Zombieland & not get bitten by the zombies.

You know what I mean?

Adios amigos ♥

FROM DANNY BOY TO DANNY MAN

Ahoy!

Celebrated Cousin Danny's 21st Birthday @ Shabu-Shabu, Puchong.
[Actual birthday falls on 15th January]


Yea. Every homo in this pic came to celebrate his b'day.
*boil boil*

Surprisingly, I didn't really feel bloated yesterday.
Or did I eat lesser than usual???
I don't really know what I've eaten.
LOL
And I had brain & heart freeze after taking one sip of the Ice-Blended Lemon! -,-
Felt as if my esophagus was about to explode! What the.

Anyway,,,
He has transformed from a boy to a man.
[Long ago but I'm just saying it. XD]

YEA! THE CAKE IS PINK IN COLOUR! GAY MUCH?!

O!
Everyone used to call him 'Danny Boy'.
O! My dad still does. Lol!


LOL

Cousinzz.
[Don't really now why my dad's there =P ]

Dad & I ♥
Lol. 38.

Mami & I!! ♥

Pig & Shen Yi.

The Yoon Family.

Baby Tong Tong!

Naughty boy, Cousin WY & Shizuka.

Naughty boy is toooo irresistible! XD

ihatethewayilooknowihatebeingthefatassihatetheuglymeihatemyself!ifeeldisgustedwhenilookatmyselfinthe
mirrorifeeldisgustedbymyself!ihatemyfaceihatethezombielookihatemydulllookingeyes!ihatemyself!

está bien

Wee!~ Great!
New Year started off really GREAT! Lol

First day of 2010, my 'auntie' came. Pain like one SHIT.
The lower part of my body was like paralyzed.

Second day of 2010, mom & I went to Auntie Eli's house for mahjong session.
[The mothas of course =D ]
I didn't felt right the whole day. Felt like throwing up. No appetite.
And I did threw up at last. Like A LOT. Had food poisoning.
Due to the oysters I guess. Damn! History repeated! NO MORE!
Okay, skip the gross part.

Worst thing is,,, I didn't get to eat Auntie Chris' Brownies!
Also Vanilla and Cookies & Cream ice cream! =(
They had dessert when I was throwing up. ISH!
Uncle Tim also made lots of 'siew mai' WHICH is MY FAV!
It's 'SIEW MAI'! 'SIEW MAI'!!!!!!!!! URGH!!
And I only get to force one down.
Mom was winning but we had to leave early. XD [Fated] *LOL*

Got to attend a wedding dinner later.
I don't even know who the bride & groom are. -,-
Even mom doesn't know.
It's Grandma's old neighbour's daughter's wedding. -,-
Why in the world are WE invited?!
'3 doesn't know 7' & I can bet the food sucks!
But it's okay. I won't be able to eat much. =D
Lol. Craps.

OMG!
18 going on 19!
I really don't believe this.
I still feel like a kid. XP
No no.
Another 9 months to go.
Am still 18.
Lol.

Adios! ♥

IT'S A NEW BEGINNING!

Hello 2010!
It's a jolly new year.
It HAS to be. Lol.
Stayed at home for the whole day.
Not bad. Lol.

Anyway, I have been thinking about what I've learned this year.
☠ Most people wear masks
☠ Lots of people are unthoughtful
☠ To enjoy life is not about going to parties, hanging out with friends or spending time outside
☠ To be genuinely happy is a task that I find difficult to fulfill
☠ If you keep your mouth shut, you'll learn a lot

This year, I shall learn to be more optimistic about life.
Other things perhaps.
About myself, I still can't accept it.
Hmmmmmm. Bull crap. Nvm.

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..:: Last year [yesterday] ::..
Had dinner @ Saisaki with mom, dad & the pig. =D
Food quality improved. Maybe coz it's new year's eve. Lol.
There were so many million gazillion homos outside Pavillion! -,-
Omg. I hate the crowd. So effin dangerous.
Maybe I have panic disorder with agoraphobia/enochlophobia. *LMAO*

Yummilicious! ♥

Sake! ♥

Yea. It's like praying. XD

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..:: Wednesday ::..
Dance competition.
LAME dance.
Seriously EFFIN lame.
Till 9 at night.
Lame shit man.

One of the group dancing.

We the SAKAIS. *LMAO*

I look darn noob-tarded. WTF

The SAKAIS!

OMG! I seeeeriously look like a Sakai man! XD

Look more like a ghost! Or a thief! HAHA! XD
So farny.
O yea. NO make up for another century! [Unless I HAVE to]
Damn it! Stupid chemicals!
Made my eye lids swell & redish! Urgh!
And it took me 5 effin minutes to remove it.