NO, YOU CAN'T READ MY POKER FACE

Looks.
Can be ARE deceiving.
Well, most of the time.
Exhibit A = WONG KAI LI.
[I'm not saying that I put on a mask all the time &
deliberately present a certain look to others]
I really do not know why most of the peeps would say I look 'innocent'.
Seriously, I do not think I look innocent AT ALL! Lol

People tend to expect something different from me.
And the way I present myself..... It always surprises everyone.
Like "Waa! Kylie! Didn't know you're like that!" or "You don't look like you'll do this kind of stuff." or "You look like those good girls." BLEH.
Are you kidding me?! Goodness.
When I am with my clique, I am NOISY, UNLADYLIKE &
even BOORISH at times.
When I keep my mouth shut, THAT is when I do not fancy
that particular someone. That's why I do not talk.
I do no want to waste my energy talking crap.
BUT, others will perceive me as shy then. *rolling eyes*

Bah! Whatever and however others want to perceive me as,
I do not give a damn about it.
I am complicated. Yea, I admit it.
I may look "innocent", but what is going on in my psychopathic brain is probably beyond your wildest imagination.
Lol. So do not get fooled by my look.
.'. My behavior & characteristics are always the opposite of how I look.
Adios amigos! Time to find my best 'friend'. X]

Namaste ♥

JE VEUX REVANCHE

SO! Today..................
Felt kind of pissed and stupid. Felt like I've been cheated.
Not that I've been cheated or something. I mean the feeling.
Basically, we went there JUST to get our attendance, in order NOT TO FAIL our Co-curricular activity. Or else I'll lose my damn scholarship & also pay a 100+ bucks to re-sit to get the bloody MF credit hours.
Thinking about this makes me want to drop an atomic bomb on TARC.
URGH! Shit system!

I got up at 4.30 this morning.
Fucking reluctant to get my fat ass off the bed.
My alarm went GAGA & I'm still pigging. XD
*Ohaiyo. Ohaiyo. Ohaiyo! O-Haiyo!! OHHAIYOOO!!!!!!!*

That Mr. Bonnie/Bonny/Boni/Bony/WHATEVER said that we have to be there by 6 &&& guess what.........
I can't even see their shadows UNTIL it was 7.15 or so!
What theeee...
Me, as usual, always the earliest. Stood there like a dummy.
Called MK & MY for like a gazillion times.
I thought what the hell had happened to them....
MK overslept. -____________-


Yea. Here she is. PEACE! V
LOL
We were the Reddies.

The colourful field.

Stupid hand!

Even foolish idea -> Fireworks early in the morning.
Hellooooooooo. See smoke ar?!

I want the balloons! =(

There were some freaks dancing also. Near US. Serious freaks man.
Guys wearing hideous make up a.k.a eye liner guy liner + awful tights which looked as if it could explode any second + dreadful screams!
So sad to be their mother.
OOOOPS! I'm being judgemental.
Sorry but freaks remain freaks.
Disgusting bimbo shits.
NO! Akua shits! ><

I keep saying how much I hate this event, bla bla bla. Yet, I'm blogging about it.
Waste of time right? Yea.

OMG! I got to start digging into the notes & text books for finals.
It's next month! Total dead meat.
But I finally have the time to watch GG after the long wait.
I want to watch it & certainly can't get enough of it. WE can't. LOL!
But finalsssss........ [This word gives me the shivers right down my spine]
Or maybe I should save it for CNY.
I don't think I can go to the water park due to the 'unpleasant event'.
*Cough*

RAWR!
My bloated stomach is still bloated. 'Till now. Since last week. Damn it.
If only I could just shove my finger down to my throat & vomit everything out.
I feel extremely fat. -,-
Oh yea. Coz I AM. Peace out.

O-kay! Cut the crap & trash. Back to work.
One last presentation for Semester 2!
Bermuda Triangle, here I come! =D

SYSTEM DOWN

I feel so bloated now.
What's wrong with my stomach nowadays?
Digestive system gone all wrong!
Hmmmmmmm.
I need laxatives. Urgh!

..:: Friday ::..
Went to Jusco to get some stuff after class.
Thanks to Yan Kit who dropped me off at the LRT, I saved 60cents. Lol.
Walking around & buying stuff like a dead zombie.
I don't know what's wrong with my head.
Felt like my brain was being squished.
I actually looked like a schizophrenic!
Took the bus back. Stopped at the wrong spot.
Had to walk in the drizzling rain.
In conclusion, doing stuff alone ain't fun at all! =(

Anyway, I had a great nap after I got back to the dorm.
From 4-7.30! Syok-ness!
Watched 'My Bloody Valentine'!
This movie is so damn funny!
I practically laughed all the way.
There was one part where the woman & man were having sex.
She kept going "YeHs YeHs!".
After something something, she was running around naked outside the motel.
Her boobs bouncing all over. LOL!
The best part was, Tom slicing his victims' body & digging their hearts out.
LOL! Totally hilarious!

..:: Saturday ::..
Went to Merdeka Square for rehearsal.
Damn lame. -,-
During the break, we were hungry like HELL!
Therefore, we decided to call McD!
MCD TO THE RESCUE!
The conversation between Mei Yee & the McD chick was...... funny? Lol.
Everyone was dancing while we were McD-ing. Brilliant!
We did join in half way! 'Give face' XD

LOL!


Seriously, idiotic!
No food for us at all?! Not even refreshment!
Those big shots even have tables with food ready for them!
You call that 'One Malaysia'?!
They got their stomachs filled while we starve.
How awesome!
Even Dato' Ng said "Huh?! No lunch for them?! No breakfast also?!"
HAH! This is our system.

Worst thing, we have to wear this tee & that hideous cap tomorrow!
And look how fugly that bag is!
Even my grandmother would not be willing to carry that out!

OMG

Seems like some pig invaded my blog yesterday. RAWR!!
Okay. Everything is right EXCEPT for the 5th point!
Am FAT & certainly do not have a hawt body.
Eew!

RAH RAH

Yeay!
Thank God there are public holidays on Fridays!
I can spend more time at home. =D
But replacement classes were and will be practically HELL!
Never mind. Bear with it.
But I can't come home next weekend. Two weeks! =(
Thanks to the stupid dance practice.
Lame dance moves! Totally L-A-M-E....................
As in really really really LAMEEEEEE!
I don't mean to criticize traditional dances. Sorry but IT'S LAME.
Totally different from what is performed by professional dancers.
I know we're not professionals, at least teach us something better!
And of course not so embarrassing & humiliating moves!
Repeating the same moves. REPETITION IS A SIGN OF STUPIDITY.
The 'sakai dance',,, OMG X 100000000000!
I don't know where to hide my face after performing
it in front of SO many people.
The melody horrifying music is stuck in my head.
Eh ehh eh ehh eh eh eh eh eh!!~
Goodness. Or maybe that's where Lady Gaga or 2NE1
got their inspiration from. =P
Anyway, we have to go to Merdeka Square for three consecutive days.
Prepare to get a heat stroke.
And I shall transform from a Malay to an Indian. Probably a nigger! -__-
One Malaysia. *puke*

The movie "Phobia" is totally NOT SCARY!
Don't even know why they'll say it's very scary.
Or maybe I'm just too immune to it. Seriously no feel.
The first story, I don't really know what the heck was going on.
The ghost... WAIT! There was no ghost! Just a walking tree! LAME SHIT.
Run run run, rawr rawr, hit by stones, DIE.
The second one worse!
It was so fast I couldn't even figure out whether it was a continuation from the first one or another story. By the time I got it, it was already telling the third story.
Till now, I don't even know if it's second or actually the first one.
Third one, NONSENSE. Zombies. LOTS of them.
[O! They can run so fast! Awesome!]
Fourth, it wasn't scary but sad.
The part that made me want to cry was the part where the kid got killed in the hood of his mom's car. =(
I love the fifth story the most! In fact we all LOVE it! =D
It was DAMN funny! I don't mean scary funny. It's funny funny.
We nearly laughed our heads off.
If only the whole movie was like that. Syok-ness! =D

Aihz.....
I need someone who is expert in computers! =(
I don't know what's wrong with it.
I can't download stuff! =(
Urgh!

I don't like my hair style! =(
Random but yea.
It's suckier day by day!
No style! Lame!
Grow hair! Grow!

My hair sucks. My skin condition sucks.
And why am I so fat? =[
Why do I have the 'Fat genes'?
Pathetic.

REVENGE IS ALWAYS SWEET

Holy!
I'm tired. Exhausted.
But,, nevermind.
Thank God Friday's a public holiday! =D
I can go home on Thursday! *cheers*

I have no idea what's with the title.
But revenge WILL be sweeeeeet X]

I want to sleep 'till noon! Just for one day!
I've been getting up early at either 5 or 6 since,, I DON'T KNOW WHEN!
I need ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

..:: Sunday ::..

Had to attend the damn dance practice at MaTiC.
Lame Shit.
Crab moves and monkey show.
I don't even know why I was there.
We went 'lepak-ing' at the Chocolate shop instead.
Really wanted to buy some. But it was too expensive. =(

Yummilicious CHOCs!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once we have finished, we spotted a snake!
No, not those lurking in the bushes.
Some dude brought it to the fun fair.
Cute Python! =D

MK with Mr. Python.I dare not post the large size one. For some reason. LOL

Then, rushed home.
Movie session with the family @ TS!
2012-ed again. Lol.
The world ended twice.
"Not again...." =D

The family who places FOOD as the highest priority.
You see them, you see food. [Applicable vice versa =P]

..:: Monday ::..
Emo Shit.
Don't really know what to type.
Hmmmmmmm.

We always pay full attention during Ms. Caren's lecture.
But yesterday,,,,,,,, Erm,,,,,,,
We did ORIGAMI! =D

JoJo Joel's swan camel with wings!

Papa swan, Mama swan & baby swans! =D And also a flower!

Okay I know.
Lame.
Bleh!
What-ever.

MOVE ON

Even though I'm kind of unhappy now, I'll still post about something good.
No emo post! No!
Anyway, I finally have the time to chillax for a while.
I CAN FINALLY SETTLE DOWN! HOLY!Just for thaaat little while.
Next week... Coun ass due, Socio Mid-term and Psycho presentation.
WEEEEE!!!!! -,-

Finished most of the assignments!
Had been busy with asses since last Friday.
One more to go! *Cheers* =D

Curently owning an extra-ugly-zombie-face.
Puffy eyes & dark circles. Nasty pimples. Haggard look. Dull skin.
Zombie-fied! =D
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..:: Yesterday ::..
2012 with the Schizos.
Conflict betul when buying the tickets. -,-
Anyway, it was nice.
I rate it 8/10.
Will never forget the "Engine, start" XD
I didn't like the ending though.
It's so........... fairytale-ish.
O yea.
Start saving 1 billion Euros or build a super chunted high-tech submarine
or just kill yourself now.
I'll just wait for my maker to take me away.
Schizo JoJo Joel's going to build his own 'sampan'. Feel free to join him.
[Not to mention Tsunami. Even a one-meter high wave can
flip his lil 'sampan' over] =P

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..:: Last Monday ::..
Was raining monkeys & donkeys all day long!
Umbrellas didn't help AT ALL!
We were all drenched and cold.
Was forced to attend classes. [Psych Psych *Cough cough*]
Was in a dilemma. To attend or not to attend.
Due to the pathetic, heavy downpour. And the asses. And the BITCH!
At last, I decided to attend WHICH I really, truly, deeply regretted!
Attending her class is already a WTF thing.
She had to make it worse by showing me her LC-ness.
"I said if you did not bring, DON'T attend my class, RIGHT?"
Stop with the 'angmoh' accent la! Anyone can do it but not YOU!
SHIT YOU!
Carrying the Gucci bag only disgraces Gucci.
PUH-LEEZ!

TOTALLY FOR YOU, BITCH!!
ONE MORE!

O. It means ass hole.
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..:: Last Sunday::..
Dear's bro's 21st Birthday.
Partay partay at his house.

Cassidy Tan Ba-Bi & One-Eye Monster.
Hmmm. Didn't really do anything there.
Played FB. Played Spot The Difference with the-dude-who-
claimed-himself-the-most-leng-zai. *Puke*
Itu babi pula asyik hilangkan diri. Sibuk layan tetamu.
Then, mom came early. =(

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..::Last Saturday::..
Erm. So-called partay at Aunt Lin's house.
Food food food!
It's always the good food that brings us all together. =P
I actually thought of doing my ass there but ended up playing with the kids.
[I know this sounds WRONG] =X


Shen Yi, Kit Yan & I [Ignore the retarded look of mine]

Zombie & Yan

Yan & Retard

Yan & Fat Pig

She's so cute! Lol
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I think my blog is a waste of space in the web.
And is blogging a waste of time?
Hmmmmm.
Delete it?

EVIL STILL WINS

Hey * look at me.
Think back and talk to me.
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I want to do?
Coz it hurts when you disapprove all along.
And now I try hard to make it.
I just want to make you proud.
I'm never going to be good enough for you.
I can't pretend that.
I'm alright.
And you can't change me.
I'm sorry. I can't be perfect.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be.
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
I don't know what you're expecting of me.
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.
Caught in the undertow.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there.
Become so tired so much more aware.
I'm becoming this all I want to do.
Is be more like me and be less like you.
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control.
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.

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I said I'm not going to be emo.
I said I'm going to be happy no matter what.
I said there will only be happy posts.
I said...........
And now.
I just can't.

What's wrong?! What's my offense this time?!
I just can't be the perfect person you want me to be.
Maybe the day I * is the day you'll truly feel *.

CRY NO MORE

What's wrong with Mozilla? I can't upload pics. Ish. =(

Hmmmm.
Anyway, had a yummy yummy dinner with mom yesterday.
Japanese food @ Kampachi, Pav.
Tokyo Bento! ♥ Mmmmmmm
Love the beef roll OMG!
Am so in love with BEEEF recently. =D
[Next, Kobe Beef!] =P
Thought of going to Angus Steakhouse. Unfortunately, it was closed. =(

Bought a nail polish too! My RED HOT CHILI RED! =D
Fortunately, it matches with the current one! Wee! =D
Don't have to buy OPI which is damn expensive!
Got the base & top coat as well for only 11 bucks.
Protect the nails. *Tsk tsk*
Don't have to go for another pedi too!
Can do it by myself! =D
[Of course professionals produce MUCh better quality work]

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Weeeee!
I've decided. I want to be happy! <-- This sounds dumb
I want to be a happy happy person.
No matter what. I don't care about what others say anymore.
I won't let others affect me.
I live in my own world. My happy world.
I want to paint my life with all the happy colours!
O. Black is still one of my favourite colour though. =D
Smie and laugh. Attract all positive energy!

After a deep, long thought, I realised my life ain't that sucky.
I make it sucky. I make it worse.
Therefore, I'm going to fix it. =)
Add colours and happiness to my life.

My 2010 resolution is to be an optimistic person!
[I need time to change]
I admit that I didn't give myself a chance to change.

Ms Caren is right. Carl Roger's theory is right.
Why focus on the bad stuff?
When you focus more on the good stuff, the bad one tends to recede.
Isn't that great?
Happiness & laughter are contagious.

I always show my sour and emo face. I know. So bloody annoying.
I know that it's actually making the people around me suffer.
When I'm always unhappy, those around me won't be able to pull a smile.
[Those who really care about me, I mean]
Those who don't, God knows.
So.......... Why not?

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Hmmmmm...
Currently going GAGA!~~
Not Lady Gaga.
Gaga Gaga.
Omg. This proves it........
Assignments are driving me nuts!
Gee. Faced the monitor for hours & my wrist is aching now. =(
I have to finish everything by today. Latest tomorrow. Aiks.
One down, 2 more to go.
Having a hard time doing Sociology. No idea how to crap the examples.
But,,, nevermind. I can do it. Don't care if I have eye bags, dark circles or nasty pimples [which I already have], I must finish everything!
Counseling Test next Monday.
Plus, our timetable is packed.
Seriously PACKED! Like sardine in a can!
Monday 9-10, 10-12, 12-1.30, 2-4 & 4-5.30!
"At the end of the day" *cough cough*, we'll collapse & go ZZZ.
Wednesdays are supposed to be FREEE but we have replacement classes.
Lots of them. Ms Caren said she owes us 5 classes! Holy!
Wee!!!!! Fun!! ~_~

O! I want to add something!

How to be a self-actualized person
1. You have to have an 'angmoh' slang.
2. You must at least get a "MAsters".
*Say it with the 'angmoh' slang & emphasize on the A*
3. You have to as arrogant as possible.
4. You have to walk as if your feet weigh a tonne & make the
sound *tap tap tap* with your sandals/shoes/whatever.
5. You don't have to have good teaching skills. If someone asks
you to explain some terms/theory, just say "Check it our yourself!".
6. Pick on people & be as harsh as you can on them.

See! It's so easy to adopt the characteristics of a self-actualized person! =P
Okay okay. I'm just joking. This is just to tell you how baaaaaad my * lecturer is. Sarcastic right?
Lalala~ Don't care.
I'm proven to be sarcastic. We did a personality test during Psycho lesson & thanks to JoJo Joel & Kit, I'm a sarcastic person. They tick me 'rebellious' as well! =[
But I certainly am NOT sly!! -,-

Anyway, back to my assignments!
From now on, there will only be happy posts!
Ass Ass! I'm doing it happily! =D
See! My first step to becoming an optimist! =D *cheers*

Spread the joy! Spread the laughter! Spread the ♥

Los seres humanos son el mal

What's with people nowadays? Don't they have a slight sense of humanity? Mercy? Sympathy? People are just pure evil. Insensitive. Unthoughtful. They don't give a shit about how others feel.They don't give a shit if they hurt someone's feelings. What do they care about? Selfish. Self-centered.

Insult. Humiliate. That's what humans tend to do. That's their hobby. They feel great after they have belittled someone else. They insult to feel superior.
They think they're so great. As a matter of fact, .........................................
[Sadly, that includes close friends.]
Sometimes, I wish I didn't have to deal with humans. Why am I even a human? Dealing with animals seems like a MUCH better option. I'd rather be an ant even if I have to be killed, crushed, stepped or whatever shit. I don't care. Or I should be a pig! Life of a pig is all about eating, sleeping & getting slaughtered. It's far more blissful to be a human. Humans are the most evil creature on planet earth. There are too many of them. And earth should be destroyed. Fortunately, it's happening soon. Cruelty stops then.
[Seeing a human die is better than seeing an animal die.]

Those who rape or murder like Jack the Ripper & commit all brutal crimes....
Those physical crimes........... They don't hurt much. At least the victims are really dead & they don't have to feel the pain anymore. And the pain only occurs once. But words... Words used by people are the most savage, cruel, crude, unsympathetic, ruthless way of killing someone. Of course people won't be physically dead but those words..... They're like deadly knives that scrape your heart until one day, your heart feels so numb. You have to live with the pain and you can't just die. You only wish you were. You feel worthless. Belittled. Mentally ill. What will people say then? You're crazy. It's all your own fault. You think too much. But how much do they know? NONE.

And then you try to hint everyone. But what crosses their minds is, "It's just another complaint & emo moment of hers. Let it be" or "Aah, whatever. Bull shit". They even attack more! It's just so disappointing!
Can't you all just pretend that I'm invisible?! Oh yea. Of course not coz I'm too fat & obvious!

Yea. After all this bull shit that I have typed, one thing will cross your mind.
"YOU WERE MEAN TO PEOPLE TOO".
But do you even ACTUALLY know why I do this?!
If they hadn't started it, I wouldn't have adopted this behaviour.
Or maybe, "WHY ARE YOU MAKING SMALL MATTERS BIG?!".
Sometimes, an issue might not seem so important to someone but it IS to another.

To those who don't read my blog, that would be GREAT! I can say FUCK YOU!
Nah, to whoever.... You don't even know if I'm talking about you.

I didn't give a damn about what people say back then. But after years of accumulation, my level of patience & acceptance are up to its limit.
I want to learn to pick up those that I want to to hear & ignore insensitive words. Can I?
Can I just succumb without anyone knowing?Can I just be invisible?Can we just live without judging each other?
Can I go to a place where there are no humans?Can they just stop saying those mean stuff to me?
Don't even bother asking me what the prob is.
Yea yea.It's all rubbish.Exaggeration.I'm psychotic.
Better yet, leave me alone.